14 November 2009
One week left. How did that happen? This time next Saturday and I’ll be working on my way across the ocean. Bummer.
Every Saturday in town, the Old Biscuit Mill has a marvelous morning market and food extravaganza. It’s popular because of its indulgence in good art, the appreciation of different cultures and the fortification of good company. My friend Claudia, from UCT and I went there today (we have been trying to go for weeks). Hearing rumors and seeing for yourself are two completely different things, so I was excited to see things for myself.
We parked on the side streets near Observatory. I thought, what really could be here? It seemed like the garment district in NY, factories and old time mills. Nothing special, or so I thought. As we turned the corner, there was an explosion of people sitting on piles of coloured tires, holding flutes of champagne or wine with floating fruit. Everyone seemed to at peace, like an abyss of another realm. The smells were unbelieveable. It was a conglomeration of aroma, capturing senses of flafels, fresh breads, cheeses, spices and the appeal of a multicultural circus. In one corner you had people serving fresh meats; sausages, bratwurst – other meats that I could not really see. As we walked into the building, there was a stage of cheese. Yes, a stage. Brie, muenster, gorgonzola, feta, gouda, all the goodies. I would have DIED to try one, but since my recent movement into being a vegan a few months back, I could only be in shock in awe on the sidelines. Next to the cheese stage, was a decorated mass of artistically appealing cupcakes, with little scenes on them like trees, a girl and boy kissing, hearts, stars, you name it. They sparkled. I’ve never in my life seen a cupcake have edible glitter on it. They seemed to be frosted to perfection, having just the right amount and not an overproduction of design. Other booths included, fresh bagels with lox and cream cheese, warm and cold coffees from Italy, these pizzas that seemed like they were baked for the Vatican- allusive with toppings, carrying ingredients like proscuitto, shredded strips of mozzarella, popped cherry tomatoes, freshly grown herbs- basil, thyme and oregano flew into my nostrils like leprechauns seeing the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and the gold actually being there.
Claudia had been there 3-4 times so she kind of had an idea what she wanted to munch on. I on the other hand was too overwhelmed and stuck to my double espresso. Plus there were too many good photo moments to be eating. In the centre of this all, people were seated on packs of hay, picnic tables and the coloured tires- sipping out of coconuts and tilting their sun hats, every so slightly in order to look that much more chic. It was as if I was on the set for the Great Gatsby and Fitzgerald himself was sitting next to me, directing the actors and extras in order to frame the shot and bring forth a message- wealth can be exuded by just how you carry yourself, how you are seen by the public and by what material items you adorn you body and surround your life with. This was white South Africa at its finest, basking the sun that poor children on the other side of town in Sophumelela or Kensington are as well. Except instead of worrying over where their next meal will come from, they worry about what label is on the inside of their clothes. Somewhat disgusting, but I guess every class in society has its form of social networking.
Nonetheless, the art was there. It was what drew me into the place, first and foremost. I heard rumors of a to die for photography shop and Claudia said it was around the corner. I forget the name, but it blew me away. They had fish-eye cameras with 35-mm film, something I have been struggling to find for years and there it was for only R600. Ahh, I was tempted, but resisted, successfully. Bleh. The shop was perfectly composed, as if it were too a photograph. They had an exhibition wall, where Claudia saw her friend who models for a Cape Tonian photographer on the wall amongst the vast amount of photos. It was like stepping into time zone between the past, present and future, lucidly placing together the semblance of truths and realities in every saturation possible and from every angle.
Some of the other shops were ceramics, South African pottery, lighting arrangements, children’s clothes, handmade jewelry and crafts. There was also this unique bead shop that was colour coordinated into different sections. Each corner of the store was sectioned off by the colour of the beads. It was as if I was stepping into a box of crayons and bathing in the very essence of each colours, grasping their importance and beauty in life and how positive colour can be.
I’m a little disappointed that I just came to find this place on my last Saturday in South Africa, but at least I can say that I have been there and can take away the memories and the art forever.
South Africa has taught me a lot about myself. In the last five months I have found out more of who I am and the genuine factors that compose me. Coming here was one of the only sole decisions I made on my own, only doing it for myself and putting whatever ills downed me at the time aside, so that I could see the world and myself for what it truly is. As I have now ventured outside the walls of America, I can honestly say that the culture in which I was born and raised rests entirely on the embodiment of other cultures. What South Africa has taught me the most is to appreciate, respect and genuinely be a member of the human race- to see the beauty in all people, places and things- no matter if you’ve been there a million times or it’s the first time your eyes have seen the place. The world is full of life and your life was a gift given to you by powers higher than yourself, so cherish it, expand it, challenge it, and most importantly, live it.
The housemates and myself are going to head to Durban from the 17-19. I’m excited to have a little bit of a vac after my last examination on the 16. And then I head back to New York.
Cheers, Mel.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Kind of an update #1.
I remember the days when I used to dress up for Halloween. I would fall asleep the night before in this black sweatshirt that had this haunted house scene. The only reason I fell asleep in it was because it glew in the dark and I would hide under my covers and watch it glow all night. The next morning I would be already on a sugar high. After making my costume all month, I would be extremely excited to go to school and show it off in the parades we used to have. Halloween meant a day to goof off, when the teachers would dress up, give out lollipops and we would have themed crosswords to do, with words like “gremlin” and “witch.” Oh, the days of fun!
I know that I haven’t been updating lately, as Quig mentioned to me a few days ago. It’s hard to sit in front of a computer when the beach beckons and the sun is shining, but I can try. Amongst the end of semester projects and papers, I have been otherwise basically, doing nothing. I realized that I have to go back to work when I get back and my last semester at UAlbany, I am enrolled in 18 credits (6 classes), so I am not going to have time to just do nothing. After I finished all of my papers I had this past week to be lazy and read and catch up on a few pieces of writing that have been unfinished in my writing folder.
I can’t help but mention, one of my favorite professors in the past 4 years. It’s hard to believe I am graduating soon. It’s something you work so hard towards and when it finally comes you can’t help but ask yourself, “really?”
“What is special? Sacred, even? It all is. Your life. My life. Each experience each person has. There is truth in it all, and all of it is important, worth telling.” (Scott O’Callaghan, M.S., Prof. of English, Southern Vermont College).
Among the many insights Scott taught us, that always stuck with me somehow. I found it in my journal and rewrote it on a new page, because what it meant to me at 18, means something different at 21. All week I’ve been toying around with this idea that life, indeed, is sacred and those who do not see it should be told otherwise. It is dangerous in a way to forget what you have been given, the ability to see, to feel, to experience with the fogginess of routine, responsibility and minor issues. Your life is a powerful thing that if you take away your bills, your not so cool boss, papers that are due, whatever- you still have this thing idling there, knocking at your consciousness, saying “hello! Let’s go live!” And without that and that only, is it true that you are considered lifeless; dead. I can’t help but be caught up in the ills of society sometimes, we fall into the traps of not seeing tomorrow because of all the things that you have to do that tomorrow just seems not even fathomable. You always make it through and tomorrow becomes yesterday, yet a new tomorrow forms- making your worries still there, but on a new day.
You have to stand back and see that life and truth and experience, are like Scott said, special and even sacred. It is what makes everyone unique and beautiful in his or her own sense.
This isn’t exactly, “OMG, I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU’RE IN AFRICA AND DOING ALL THESE CRAZY THINGS!” Well… in South Africa, the days are not that much different than in New York. Of course, like in any country, there are going to be things that are cool and new, but after awhile, it all just seems like the same stuff. People have a hard time distinguishing the difference between Africa and South Africa, and oh yeah, all those other countries. Cape Town is beautiful. It has its days of rain and wind but days like this, where the sun is shining and the sky is picture perfect blue, make you look up and say, “Yeah, life is just fucking awesome.” But not because I am in South Africa. Not because of the things I have or don’t have. Not because of what I know or don’t know; the people I’ve met of have yet to meet, but because life was something I was given almost 22 years ago and it, no matter where you are, who you’re with or what you’re doing- is something that is a universal piece of happiness.
“But you cannot simply list all the moments when the world tickles your senses, only to seep away between your fingers and eyelashes, leaving you alone to tell the story of your life to an audience interested only in the fireworks or universal experiences, the roller coaster rides of sympathy judgment.”
I can honestly say that when I get home which is in about 22 days, I will be ecstatic to have a bagel and Starbucks. I want to be as American as I can be for about 20 minutes, and then share all my so-called new “worldly” views. Haha. Time here has flown by. The days have been exciting in the sense that I don’t have to DO ANYTHING other than just be. I have three finals, one every week starting this upcoming week. They’re only tests, questions on paper that see if you have been paying attention all term. I know I have, not sure if the grade of that exam will reflect that, but either way, I walk away knowing more than I did when I first walked into the lecture hall.
I haven’t worn shoes in a few days. They have turned into a sigh when I HAVE to put them on and that doesn’t necessarily have to be the case either. SA has no, “no shirt, no shoes, no service” law, so I have been grocery shopping, sitting in lectures and roaming the streets, barefoot. My mom probably just cringed when she read that.
So- as “uneventful” as things may seem, this has been the most relaxing and eye opening few weeks of my life, so far.
*mel
I know that I haven’t been updating lately, as Quig mentioned to me a few days ago. It’s hard to sit in front of a computer when the beach beckons and the sun is shining, but I can try. Amongst the end of semester projects and papers, I have been otherwise basically, doing nothing. I realized that I have to go back to work when I get back and my last semester at UAlbany, I am enrolled in 18 credits (6 classes), so I am not going to have time to just do nothing. After I finished all of my papers I had this past week to be lazy and read and catch up on a few pieces of writing that have been unfinished in my writing folder.
I can’t help but mention, one of my favorite professors in the past 4 years. It’s hard to believe I am graduating soon. It’s something you work so hard towards and when it finally comes you can’t help but ask yourself, “really?”
“What is special? Sacred, even? It all is. Your life. My life. Each experience each person has. There is truth in it all, and all of it is important, worth telling.” (Scott O’Callaghan, M.S., Prof. of English, Southern Vermont College).
Among the many insights Scott taught us, that always stuck with me somehow. I found it in my journal and rewrote it on a new page, because what it meant to me at 18, means something different at 21. All week I’ve been toying around with this idea that life, indeed, is sacred and those who do not see it should be told otherwise. It is dangerous in a way to forget what you have been given, the ability to see, to feel, to experience with the fogginess of routine, responsibility and minor issues. Your life is a powerful thing that if you take away your bills, your not so cool boss, papers that are due, whatever- you still have this thing idling there, knocking at your consciousness, saying “hello! Let’s go live!” And without that and that only, is it true that you are considered lifeless; dead. I can’t help but be caught up in the ills of society sometimes, we fall into the traps of not seeing tomorrow because of all the things that you have to do that tomorrow just seems not even fathomable. You always make it through and tomorrow becomes yesterday, yet a new tomorrow forms- making your worries still there, but on a new day.
You have to stand back and see that life and truth and experience, are like Scott said, special and even sacred. It is what makes everyone unique and beautiful in his or her own sense.
This isn’t exactly, “OMG, I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU’RE IN AFRICA AND DOING ALL THESE CRAZY THINGS!” Well… in South Africa, the days are not that much different than in New York. Of course, like in any country, there are going to be things that are cool and new, but after awhile, it all just seems like the same stuff. People have a hard time distinguishing the difference between Africa and South Africa, and oh yeah, all those other countries. Cape Town is beautiful. It has its days of rain and wind but days like this, where the sun is shining and the sky is picture perfect blue, make you look up and say, “Yeah, life is just fucking awesome.” But not because I am in South Africa. Not because of the things I have or don’t have. Not because of what I know or don’t know; the people I’ve met of have yet to meet, but because life was something I was given almost 22 years ago and it, no matter where you are, who you’re with or what you’re doing- is something that is a universal piece of happiness.
“But you cannot simply list all the moments when the world tickles your senses, only to seep away between your fingers and eyelashes, leaving you alone to tell the story of your life to an audience interested only in the fireworks or universal experiences, the roller coaster rides of sympathy judgment.”
I can honestly say that when I get home which is in about 22 days, I will be ecstatic to have a bagel and Starbucks. I want to be as American as I can be for about 20 minutes, and then share all my so-called new “worldly” views. Haha. Time here has flown by. The days have been exciting in the sense that I don’t have to DO ANYTHING other than just be. I have three finals, one every week starting this upcoming week. They’re only tests, questions on paper that see if you have been paying attention all term. I know I have, not sure if the grade of that exam will reflect that, but either way, I walk away knowing more than I did when I first walked into the lecture hall.
I haven’t worn shoes in a few days. They have turned into a sigh when I HAVE to put them on and that doesn’t necessarily have to be the case either. SA has no, “no shirt, no shoes, no service” law, so I have been grocery shopping, sitting in lectures and roaming the streets, barefoot. My mom probably just cringed when she read that.
So- as “uneventful” as things may seem, this has been the most relaxing and eye opening few weeks of my life, so far.
*mel
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
A pendulum of great vibes, swinging in the yield of Spring.
Happy Anniversary Quig and Charlie! Ten years, solid. <3
In the transition of Spring, I have returned from yet another great weekend adventuring. Saturday was a day of immense rain. I thought the windows were going to cave in. I can successfully say that I spent the entire day reading and catching up on some homework, even though that’s all I feel like I do during the week. Oh, well.
Although, Earth Dance was all weekend (25-27) we could only make it Saturday night into Sunday. Fighting the rain and the clouds on our back, we drove from Cape Town, through a carbon dioxide tunnel and into what some claim as another realm. “The light at the end of the tunnel” did actually emerge between conversations and the warmth of each other crammed into Shale’s Toyota. Arriving around roughly, 11 p.m. our wrists were wrapped in a kool-aid blue bracelet at the entrance, searched for glass bottles (Earth Dance supports and actively promotes the idea of an eco-friendly environment which consequently linked to my International Politics lecture today). Amidst the rain and the copious amounts of strangers that collaborate in the dark, storm fronted campsite, the energy that was leaking from the transmissive beats, bass tones, and subtleties of trance music was a kinetically charged quantum.
Those times when you feel confused or lost or numb you have to remember that there are layers of yourself you haven’t hit yet- a metaphorical onion- sure there are going to be parts of yourself that you are going to be upset over, but the other layers unravel in a versatility unimaginable. Be an onion, even if you are stinky sometimes- it’s always worth it in the end.
Sadly, I was experiencing a piercing and idling migraine where my eyes felt so swollen and sensitive that I was succumbed to the tent the entire night. I took comfort in the fact that the next day was going to be a crazy connection with others and a time of spiritual realization. And to my relief, it was. A lot of people carry stereotypes about trance music and what it represents, claiming that it is too “repetitive” or that it all sounds the same. That’s the thing; many don’t take enough time to pick it apart. It’s the type of music that makes you think and ties in with the layering idea. Trance music represents that idea perfectly. Once you take the time to pick apart the different sound layers you hear the deconstructed messages strategically placed within the tracks and it literally puts you in a state of mind where you find that core of yourself. It makes you move and feel its presence right away, gunning your knees forward or making connections with perfect strangers whom you woke up that morning not knowing of their existence yet you stand lost in a crowd and this relationship that carries as strong of a bond as you would have with a decade long friend.
We woke up around 7 am with all our concentration going towards the dance floor. Missioning over with a beer in hand and some water in the other the dance party started. Before I knew it, it was noon and we had been dancing for 5 hours, but once you get lost into that realm, it is very difficult to break away. We eventually did find ourselves quite on the hungry side and venturing back to the camp to make some fruit salad. And then back again for more dancing.
Overall, the trance party was more than I what I thought it was going to be. Even though my mind was pretty open to anything that came along, there were still something’s that I still thought that would “define” trance. And I find myself, after returning home still struggling to really give a “definition” of trance or the essence that it carries. Almost emulating a religion, the type of following is devote, worshipping and carries a sense of pride. As I am fully embracing, everything is contextual- so of course, what I find exciting and alluring may or may not seem such that way to others. So let it be known, that this is my opinion and in no way should anyone take it as a matter of fact.
As another week molds into the concrete shape of work and seriousness, I am demonized by papers, reading, research and gasp! more writing. I am destined to go hiking this weekend; the forecast has already promised me good weather so if it does not follow through, I will be upset. Ahh.
I’ve posted the good pictures of Earth Dance on facebook, so if you aren’t on facebook, feel free to e-mail me so I can pass some along. I’m trying to conserve bandwidth.
Cheerio!
Mel
In the transition of Spring, I have returned from yet another great weekend adventuring. Saturday was a day of immense rain. I thought the windows were going to cave in. I can successfully say that I spent the entire day reading and catching up on some homework, even though that’s all I feel like I do during the week. Oh, well.
Although, Earth Dance was all weekend (25-27) we could only make it Saturday night into Sunday. Fighting the rain and the clouds on our back, we drove from Cape Town, through a carbon dioxide tunnel and into what some claim as another realm. “The light at the end of the tunnel” did actually emerge between conversations and the warmth of each other crammed into Shale’s Toyota. Arriving around roughly, 11 p.m. our wrists were wrapped in a kool-aid blue bracelet at the entrance, searched for glass bottles (Earth Dance supports and actively promotes the idea of an eco-friendly environment which consequently linked to my International Politics lecture today). Amidst the rain and the copious amounts of strangers that collaborate in the dark, storm fronted campsite, the energy that was leaking from the transmissive beats, bass tones, and subtleties of trance music was a kinetically charged quantum.
Those times when you feel confused or lost or numb you have to remember that there are layers of yourself you haven’t hit yet- a metaphorical onion- sure there are going to be parts of yourself that you are going to be upset over, but the other layers unravel in a versatility unimaginable. Be an onion, even if you are stinky sometimes- it’s always worth it in the end.
Sadly, I was experiencing a piercing and idling migraine where my eyes felt so swollen and sensitive that I was succumbed to the tent the entire night. I took comfort in the fact that the next day was going to be a crazy connection with others and a time of spiritual realization. And to my relief, it was. A lot of people carry stereotypes about trance music and what it represents, claiming that it is too “repetitive” or that it all sounds the same. That’s the thing; many don’t take enough time to pick it apart. It’s the type of music that makes you think and ties in with the layering idea. Trance music represents that idea perfectly. Once you take the time to pick apart the different sound layers you hear the deconstructed messages strategically placed within the tracks and it literally puts you in a state of mind where you find that core of yourself. It makes you move and feel its presence right away, gunning your knees forward or making connections with perfect strangers whom you woke up that morning not knowing of their existence yet you stand lost in a crowd and this relationship that carries as strong of a bond as you would have with a decade long friend.
We woke up around 7 am with all our concentration going towards the dance floor. Missioning over with a beer in hand and some water in the other the dance party started. Before I knew it, it was noon and we had been dancing for 5 hours, but once you get lost into that realm, it is very difficult to break away. We eventually did find ourselves quite on the hungry side and venturing back to the camp to make some fruit salad. And then back again for more dancing.
Overall, the trance party was more than I what I thought it was going to be. Even though my mind was pretty open to anything that came along, there were still something’s that I still thought that would “define” trance. And I find myself, after returning home still struggling to really give a “definition” of trance or the essence that it carries. Almost emulating a religion, the type of following is devote, worshipping and carries a sense of pride. As I am fully embracing, everything is contextual- so of course, what I find exciting and alluring may or may not seem such that way to others. So let it be known, that this is my opinion and in no way should anyone take it as a matter of fact.
As another week molds into the concrete shape of work and seriousness, I am demonized by papers, reading, research and gasp! more writing. I am destined to go hiking this weekend; the forecast has already promised me good weather so if it does not follow through, I will be upset. Ahh.
I’ve posted the good pictures of Earth Dance on facebook, so if you aren’t on facebook, feel free to e-mail me so I can pass some along. I’m trying to conserve bandwidth.
Cheerio!
Mel
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Burn Afrika, but leave Tankwa Town behind.
Spring break came and left as always, too quickly. The first few days, it was a relaxing wind down from writing paper after paper and reading article after article. Nothing worth writing home about.
Although, I did go to AfrikaBurn 2009, embarking on the journey Wednesday morning and beaconing home sometime Saturday.I must admit, I have grown relatively lazy on writing in this blog because I have so many other things to write. It always seems that I am writing SOMETHING. So in defense of the genre, I hereby am guilty of self-plagiarism for this post will be a repercussion of a a blog post about AfrikaBurn I wrote for my Print Production class. Forgive me!? All in all, when I have the creative concepts going again, I will return with fresh, un-published material. Haha.
Enjoy the post and the pictures <3
**MEL
AFRIKABURN 2009
$: R350
When: 09-13.09.2009
Where: Tankwa Town, Karoo
www.afrikaburn.com
TIME- 09-13.09.2009 was the theme carried on for the event known as AfrikaBurn. Modeled after the American burning man, AfrikaBurn brings a community and participatory essence to South Africa.
Making 2009 its third year, AfrikaBurn stands for a cooperation of human kind, isolated in the desert and beautified with the key elements to what it means to have dignity, respect, creative juice and a peace of mind. Free of judgment and ridicule, AfrikaBurn gives one time to express themselves in a realm otherwise covered up by the ills of society.
“…a place to collaborate, cooperate & contribute to our collectively created experience… an opportunity to invent the world anew… to generate a culture… a connective environment… to be idealistic & celebratory… to have fun… this town may be temporary, but we hope the experience stays with you… this is an invent rather than an event…”
Spring break in America means hitting the beaches of Cancun, exploring the coast of Southern Cali or just really venturing to someplace warm and sunny and getting wasted with your friends. While that sounds like a nice little week off from college, it begins to feel routine and overrated. This invent as AfrikaBurn deems the event gives people not just a time to get away from the formalities of society but also a time to create something to bring back from this temporary space and intertwine the aspects into everyday life.
We left Wednesday around noon- embarking on this three-hour journey was something of a mystery to me. Carrying with the theme of time, we left our cell phones, our watches and just any electronical piece at home. It was a disconnect from technology and a time to enhance a time where you can really, truly find yourself, connect with humanity, and express yourself in a free and open environment without the harsh judgment or stress of reality.
Lost in the Karoo desert of Tankwa Town, AfrikaBurn provided you with that escaped sense of self, that ideal essence of being where you could connect with a simplistic symphony of ideas and creativity. Having Spring break in September is a cool benefit from studying abroad, but being lost in the desert for 4 days is even a larger benefit. I chose to bring this to our Around the Corner blog so that people can see how cool of an experience it is, so that they can venture into the invent next year.
As a giving community, AfrikaBurn prohibits any monetary exchange and that idea is really stressed on. You don’t have to get your keys or your ID card in order to go someplace, you just need your two feet and your brain. Having an open mind is probably one of the largest things to carry with you at all times; without it, the Karoo isn’t right for you. Since we all lived together in this abyss of communal entity, we ended up using that idea of giving, trading our neighbors for some cheese in exchange for eggs, beer for water, fire for coffee. The exchanges were always fair and it always meant that you could meet and talk with someone completely new.
Cascaded with an explosion of collaborative creativeness, AfrikaBurn was circled around with structures and sculptures that made you just stop in awe and think about why they stood there and what impact they had on your life. ‘The Wish’ was a large white, wooden structure that took semblance to that of Epcot Center in Disney World except for the idea that it had nothing to do with space but more of finding what you truly wish for in life. Created by Brendan Smithers and the Upsetters it honors Welcome Nombila who lost his life in July 2009. It has been apart of AB since last years invent. No matter where you go around the site, you can see ‘The Wish’ which puts this on your mind and makes it a permanent backdrop in your stay.
Other art that was shared was, The Paranoid Android, Memory, Spiral Time Peace, Devoid of Fridge Poetry, Art on a Blank Canvas, The Triple Bypass, Timeless DNA, Half Past Nine, Shipwrecked at AfrikaBurn—Buried in the Sands of Time, etc. Each piece of art carried its own deep connection with time and why it is important to have displayed at AB.
Other than art, AB had themed camps that were set up along the outside of the site, surrounding the art. The theme camps included The Silent Cinema where you could watch a range of classic, antique, silent and rare films. Burning Mail where you can send post to your family and friends. Heart Space where you can go and relax, recharge, rejuvenate and be inspired. The Homeless Hotel which had six hammocks made from 2 litre plastic bottles suspended in a circular design with a fire at night and a portable pool filled with plastic bottles and balls.
Recycle and re-use is a common aspect of the festival. The site is a leave no trace site, making sure you leave with what you have brought. This allows for the desert to be left in the same state that we arrived in and gives respect to Mother Earth.
The variety that is around AB is incredible. It gives you a sense of the diversity that we often forget in a busy, urbanized world. This differentiation is something to carry with you no matter where you are, whom you are with or what you are doing in life. Having a tight grasp on being kind and open is crucial in understanding the order of the world.
So with this all being said, go to AfrikaBurn next year if you have never gone. Get a group of your friends, hire a car, a tent, a sleeping bag and a bunch of food (don’t forget the beer!) and go have the time of your life. I know I did. And I also know that what I learned at this invent will always be with me and it stands as somewhat indescribable, making it that much more valuable.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
08/09/2009
I leave for Afrika Burn tomorrow morning, with only what I can carry in my JanSport, a sleeping bag and a tent. I haven’t updated in about two weeks—so let me try and recall what I have been doing.
1. I shaved my head, in the sake of redefining beauty, liberation and for a journalism project.
2. I have learned that you can’t depend on anything but who you are and what you want to become, in order to be happy.
3. I’ve done a lot of cooking the last two weeks- concoctions with avos, tomatoes, cheese, eggs (sometimes, always whites) and some bread.
4. I’ve been trying to get out more- to see more things. I’ve been using my camera a lot more lately, going out specifically to take nice shots and learning how to edit them. Another aspect of journalism that keeps my creative juices soaring.
5. I’m learning more about myself than I ever thought was possible.
After I got my head shaved ( which when I get home, I have a great video of it all ) we ventured in Obz to try and find cool places to hang out in. We discovered some interesting used book stores, the first second hand clothing shop I’ve seen, bunches of java junctions and cafes- If you’re from Albany, Obz is like Lark St., minus Bomber’s and The Shining Star). I encountered this really great find, called Ska, apparently a chain hippie style-clothing store in Obz as well as on Long St. After shaving my head, which the woman who did the deed was fascinated that I wasn’t intoxicated and that I had a legitimate reason for doing it—I found some great head scarf’s at Ska that help my already existing Bohemian-isk style. With some expectation, I did not get the greatest of reactions for cutting it all off, but mostly and what surprised me the most was when girls from my lectures who had seen my hair the length it was before to now, would come up to me and tell me how much they admired what I did and which they could pull it off or have the courage to part with it. I heard rumor that something along those lines happens, but I was utterly shocked when someone actually did approach me—all in all, I think about ten girls complimented me. Which proved my point a little bit more. And it made me feel that every woman really should just shave it all off- it’s such liberation a sense of who you are and a fail proof people filter. Autumn was 100% right when she told me that you’ll get the people that are interested in you not just for how you look, but for what you have to say. I’ve been meeting more interesting people in the last two weeks and the perspective I have now, has revolutionized whatever I thought before.
I went to The Assembly at some point in the last two weeks. It’s a local art/music/bar venue where cool upcoming bands play and you can dance or sit and chill. One of my favorite Friday/Saturday night places because the drinks are cheap and the music is always pretty decent. The last time we went, The Toxic Avengers were playing and it was a sweat fest. I’ve never danced so intensely where my clothes felt like the were embedded into my skin- and I only had 1 drink the entire time so I knew it wasn’t because I was drunk, it was because the music was making me move and dance and feel their vibes. I love how music can bring people together on so many interesting and creative levels.
I went to the Townships again. I saw District 9. I found a park. And I found my favorite place on UCT to sunbathe between classes. And realized that I can go the entire day at UCT without shoes on, gorgeous.
This week at my tutoring section it was a shame, my entire section which was sports didn’t show up. I was bummed to say the least, but I helped out the other sections and kind of just floated. One of our learneres, Thumeka Hoga handed us her poems that she copied for us so that we can publish them in our home papers. Her insight is amazing for her age. Her style and even her structure is so advanced for having no formal education in language or poetry.
This is just one of the ones she handed me, one of my favorites:
You’ll Never Know
You’ll never know how strong is a tea bag
Until you put it in hot tea water.
You’ll never know…
The scent of a rose,
Until you smell or crush it.
You’ll never know
If you are doing it overdone,
Until you are told.
You’ll never know
How beautiful is gold,
Until you burn the dirty rock,
Which holds the element.
You’ll never know
If you head won’t crush
And if you become a solider
You’ll never know
How if feels to be a corpse,
Until you die.
You’ll never know
How it is to be a liar,
Until you lie
You’ll never know
How it is to be him
Until you fit in his shoes.
You’ll never know…
Her insight has left me completely stunned as I read these poems on my couch. I was just aside from myself. I used to write a lot of poetry when I was her age and my notebooks contain nothing his profound and she reminds me of myself and I guess this where I begin to feel age kicking in. So real.
What her poems say to me is that she is just a lost in life as everyone else and that you can’t know anything until you are in the exact moment- making you never judge anyone or anything until you’ve been there.
Going back two weeks is kind of a lot of time to recall everything, which means I should write more in order to remember but I’ve been taking some time away from everything and concentrating on just what needs to get done.
The sun is shining right now, which is good because it’s been a stream of fierce rain the last two days, a great kick off to spring break! Haha.
I will have tons to write on in Afrika Burns, which you can just Google in order to find more about it. It should be one of the best times that I will have while I’m here, or at least that’s what I’m hoping. In December, I’m planning a road trip in the Garden Route in order to go bungee jumping and make friend with some elephants.
You know you’re in Z.A. when you walk out of the coffee place on campus and there is a baboon perched on top the rubbish bins, eating away in glory and instilling fear on every student that sees him. Clusters of people were circled around this almost invisible fence between themselves and the baboon—watching in amazement as he eats our old banana peels and crisp bags.
I discovered the V&A Waterfront, had some coffee, shopped a bit… Yesterday we went to the Canal Walk, the best mall in CT. We were on a mission for a sleeping bag and tent for Afrika Burn but needless to say, we couldn’t afford to get all of it, but luckily our friend Shale was nice enough to lend us his sleeping bags and tent for the week. Without that it would have been tight budget to get the equipment. There are going to a lot of outdoor parties and braais from here on until May because it’s starting to get warmer and people are starting to get as stir crazy as we get in Upstate in March. The entire city is getting ready for the World Cup so most of the highways and commercial looking buildings are under construction and it makes you think about proud this country is for having visitors. They are very hospitable and very welcoming to people who come and appreciate Zud Afrika for what it truly is and for what is had to offer in the world.
They are right when they say that it takes almost three months to feel home. And it’s starting to get that way but at the same time, I also am starting to discover even more of this country and the beauty is that you never really stop discovering, no matter where you are or what you decide to do with your life.
Wish me luck in the desert!
Cheers.
Mel
I leave for Afrika Burn tomorrow morning, with only what I can carry in my JanSport, a sleeping bag and a tent. I haven’t updated in about two weeks—so let me try and recall what I have been doing.
1. I shaved my head, in the sake of redefining beauty, liberation and for a journalism project.
2. I have learned that you can’t depend on anything but who you are and what you want to become, in order to be happy.
3. I’ve done a lot of cooking the last two weeks- concoctions with avos, tomatoes, cheese, eggs (sometimes, always whites) and some bread.
4. I’ve been trying to get out more- to see more things. I’ve been using my camera a lot more lately, going out specifically to take nice shots and learning how to edit them. Another aspect of journalism that keeps my creative juices soaring.
5. I’m learning more about myself than I ever thought was possible.
After I got my head shaved ( which when I get home, I have a great video of it all ) we ventured in Obz to try and find cool places to hang out in. We discovered some interesting used book stores, the first second hand clothing shop I’ve seen, bunches of java junctions and cafes- If you’re from Albany, Obz is like Lark St., minus Bomber’s and The Shining Star). I encountered this really great find, called Ska, apparently a chain hippie style-clothing store in Obz as well as on Long St. After shaving my head, which the woman who did the deed was fascinated that I wasn’t intoxicated and that I had a legitimate reason for doing it—I found some great head scarf’s at Ska that help my already existing Bohemian-isk style. With some expectation, I did not get the greatest of reactions for cutting it all off, but mostly and what surprised me the most was when girls from my lectures who had seen my hair the length it was before to now, would come up to me and tell me how much they admired what I did and which they could pull it off or have the courage to part with it. I heard rumor that something along those lines happens, but I was utterly shocked when someone actually did approach me—all in all, I think about ten girls complimented me. Which proved my point a little bit more. And it made me feel that every woman really should just shave it all off- it’s such liberation a sense of who you are and a fail proof people filter. Autumn was 100% right when she told me that you’ll get the people that are interested in you not just for how you look, but for what you have to say. I’ve been meeting more interesting people in the last two weeks and the perspective I have now, has revolutionized whatever I thought before.
I went to The Assembly at some point in the last two weeks. It’s a local art/music/bar venue where cool upcoming bands play and you can dance or sit and chill. One of my favorite Friday/Saturday night places because the drinks are cheap and the music is always pretty decent. The last time we went, The Toxic Avengers were playing and it was a sweat fest. I’ve never danced so intensely where my clothes felt like the were embedded into my skin- and I only had 1 drink the entire time so I knew it wasn’t because I was drunk, it was because the music was making me move and dance and feel their vibes. I love how music can bring people together on so many interesting and creative levels.
I went to the Townships again. I saw District 9. I found a park. And I found my favorite place on UCT to sunbathe between classes. And realized that I can go the entire day at UCT without shoes on, gorgeous.
This week at my tutoring section it was a shame, my entire section which was sports didn’t show up. I was bummed to say the least, but I helped out the other sections and kind of just floated. One of our learneres, Thumeka Hoga handed us her poems that she copied for us so that we can publish them in our home papers. Her insight is amazing for her age. Her style and even her structure is so advanced for having no formal education in language or poetry.
This is just one of the ones she handed me, one of my favorites:
You’ll Never Know
You’ll never know how strong is a tea bag
Until you put it in hot tea water.
You’ll never know…
The scent of a rose,
Until you smell or crush it.
You’ll never know
If you are doing it overdone,
Until you are told.
You’ll never know
How beautiful is gold,
Until you burn the dirty rock,
Which holds the element.
You’ll never know
If you head won’t crush
And if you become a solider
You’ll never know
How if feels to be a corpse,
Until you die.
You’ll never know
How it is to be a liar,
Until you lie
You’ll never know
How it is to be him
Until you fit in his shoes.
You’ll never know…
Her insight has left me completely stunned as I read these poems on my couch. I was just aside from myself. I used to write a lot of poetry when I was her age and my notebooks contain nothing his profound and she reminds me of myself and I guess this where I begin to feel age kicking in. So real.
What her poems say to me is that she is just a lost in life as everyone else and that you can’t know anything until you are in the exact moment- making you never judge anyone or anything until you’ve been there.
Going back two weeks is kind of a lot of time to recall everything, which means I should write more in order to remember but I’ve been taking some time away from everything and concentrating on just what needs to get done.
The sun is shining right now, which is good because it’s been a stream of fierce rain the last two days, a great kick off to spring break! Haha.
I will have tons to write on in Afrika Burns, which you can just Google in order to find more about it. It should be one of the best times that I will have while I’m here, or at least that’s what I’m hoping. In December, I’m planning a road trip in the Garden Route in order to go bungee jumping and make friend with some elephants.
You know you’re in Z.A. when you walk out of the coffee place on campus and there is a baboon perched on top the rubbish bins, eating away in glory and instilling fear on every student that sees him. Clusters of people were circled around this almost invisible fence between themselves and the baboon—watching in amazement as he eats our old banana peels and crisp bags.
I discovered the V&A Waterfront, had some coffee, shopped a bit… Yesterday we went to the Canal Walk, the best mall in CT. We were on a mission for a sleeping bag and tent for Afrika Burn but needless to say, we couldn’t afford to get all of it, but luckily our friend Shale was nice enough to lend us his sleeping bags and tent for the week. Without that it would have been tight budget to get the equipment. There are going to a lot of outdoor parties and braais from here on until May because it’s starting to get warmer and people are starting to get as stir crazy as we get in Upstate in March. The entire city is getting ready for the World Cup so most of the highways and commercial looking buildings are under construction and it makes you think about proud this country is for having visitors. They are very hospitable and very welcoming to people who come and appreciate Zud Afrika for what it truly is and for what is had to offer in the world.
They are right when they say that it takes almost three months to feel home. And it’s starting to get that way but at the same time, I also am starting to discover even more of this country and the beauty is that you never really stop discovering, no matter where you are or what you decide to do with your life.
Wish me luck in the desert!
Cheers.
Mel
Thursday, August 27, 2009
No cream, no sugar-- taking it straight.
27.08/2009
Ahh, full of vital energy, my kinetic potential of life here has risen to new levels. I cannot even describe how for once, I felt like I belonged here. It started off, kind of normal—with my usual wake up call at 7:15 am- snoozed a few times until 7:40, showered, and went off to call for 9am. From learning about Christianity- my baptized religion, for what seems like the first time, to learning about Print Production in FAM2010S from a jaded journalist who really could give a shit about a bunch of varsity students. My creative vibes got moving, nonetheless and my brain felt alive for the first time since Vermont. In Vermont, I always felt like my creative inhibitions were a sacred part of myself, somehow juxtaposed between the mountains, the cold and the stigma behind the naturalistic ideal of life out of the state. I felt like, you wanted to be a writer; Vermont was the place you found that part of yourself. So I did, for my first year and brought those fundamentals I learned in the small vicinity of Bennington, across the Atlantic, to Cape Town.
I had taken interest in Ubunye during O-Week, orientation my first week of settling in. They promoted themselves as a student run organization that used its resources to set up different schools of media for the townships that surrounded UCT. I immediately took interest in learning more- signed up and waited.
Time in South Africa is something of a lost arch. Somehow disoriented in Pandora’s box, time is paralleled between a maybe and sometime. By the time I heard back from Ubunye it was the 5th week into the term and I had to juggle so much out of the way in order to become involved, but deep down I knew it would be worth it. Or so I was hoping. As todays early morning evolved into the earlier parts of the afternoon, I got an SMS from Chrizane, the head director of the Media School telling me my tutor time is open and that we have a confirmed ride into the township- and to be ready at the Jammie stairs by ten past one. Excited I barreled through the meridian, the large amount of people that congregated at the Jammie stairs for the usual meridian performance of some MTN promotional band (somehow, commercialism never escapes any possible opportunity) and waited. Chrizane, against the South African time standard was ten minutes late of punctuality, but pretty much, on time. We ventured down Main Rd for Tracy, our ride into the township where we would be teaching. Tracy has been in Cape Town for 7 months, coming from the western coast of the states, San Fran, CA.
She drove Chrizane and I, along with a girl from Kansas, mhm, her name… is a blank, but we all ventured together. Since I only just joined and gotten involved, the three other girls seemed pretty involved about the project, talking about organization amongst the volunteers and the concept of responsibility, the concern for funding and the anxiety for writing our own exams before the Spring break. We finally arrived, at about half past 2. The townships that I saw on the way there were picturesque out of a slum movie. Coming for the idealistic, commercial being of the UCT region, the real, down to earth, hardships of places where our school was, it was like stepping into this space between the past and the present. A dividing line stood between myself, Cape Town and what was currently in front of my eyes. The houses were packed closer than any amount of hotels you ever owned on Baltic Avenue in your best game of Monopoly. Stray cats meowed to the chilly sun as they took homage to rooftops and garbage cans, just as desperate at the people that occupied the streets. Graffiti took major art form, in expression of struggle, the dark times of apartheid and the racial division that still stands strong in economical flows throughout the area. The division of white and black stands strong and proud, on both sides—and it was quite evident that I was the odd many out.
The four of us pulled into the Sophumelela Township School at the end of their day of school, as they stood in the courtyard, in full uniform and staring at us. Four white girls from the University step out of the transport taking eminence amongst their simplistic and almost archaic sense of being. Lost, as they were confused, we found the nearest teacher in order to find our learners for the afternoon. Chrizane found a kind woman dressed in jeans and a bright red sweater, her books and registers clustered and clutched tightly into her body. Her smile was as welcoming as American apple pie and her inquisition to our presence was as excited as a little boy who just discovered science in his backyard. She was eager and determined to help us find our learners. Some of the kids, aged in between 13-18 were already involved in the program, so the other volunteers has a better idea to what was going on than me.
Sophumelela carries that old schoolyard ambience that perhaps you see in good independent films that depict a 1960’s British school yard with a tetherball pole, lacking the tetherball and string while also having obsolete classrooms divided obscurely with a singular indication to room number only. They get straight to the point in lacking fancy education attaches (e.g. anything electronic, modern desks or titled floors…) This is raw education carries more of a close reality that is being instilled early on as opposed to 23-24-year old American college graduates that haven’t even seen any other than luxury, a sports utility Utopia of plastic overconsumption an a constitution of ignorance is bliss.
As soon as we were settled in a classroom, we stood before a room full of learners who sat in their dark blue uniforms, the sun shining through the windows and what stood between us and them was a gregarious sense of class, preponderance and titillating speculation. Chrizane is a local South African, relating more to the learners than myself. As she began the lesson plan, I stood before these 20-25 learners totally dumbfounded that I was were I was. The dirty wooden floors, the faded green chalkboards and the clusters of bland wooden tables that had their accompanying scattered chairs around was my audience in stead of being on the other side, looking at the speaker.
Teaching is flipping scary. It’s intimidating and it’s not easy. On the other hand, I’ve been in their shoes in terms of being a student looking at the teacher to run things, to hold structure and to be the source of stability—this was not my time to buckle and feel like my shy, introverted self. Hell, I am in their shoes every single day at varsity, staring blankly at my Professor with the eyes of a bad hangover and the weight of my brain holding me back from any defining ideal of participation. It wasn’t a time where I could really think about what I was going to say- it was a time to just let the punches roll. We introduced the learners into the very basics of journalism, the inverted pyramid of information (Who, What, Where, When, How) and what the purpose of having news is. Most learners source of news was limited to what they had at home, what their parents exposed or not exposed them to and what their friends talked about. As a final project, we want the kids to produce their own newspaper, with our guidance and advice we want them to be able to hold onto something tangible, to bring home and to hopefully cherish as a piece of themselves for their rest of their lives—or at least for the time being. We broke them off into the various sections of their paper. 4 groups divided into Business, Politics, Scandal/Gossip, and Sports. With 4 volunteers, our plans next week are to take our own section, have our group produced 2-3 articles and then publish them in the paper. We guide them into basic news writing, how to write in proper English and how to captivate a reader while building trust with society. They seemed so excited. And motivated. And amazing.
At another townships a few over from where we were, the headmistress was shot in the head last week, due to student rebellion. She was killed. You never get too comfortable here, ever.
“Nice tattoo!” one of the older girls said as she grabbed my wrist and gazed at my tiger lily as if it were sitting her own garden. She is doing a story about crime and her interview—or main source was her friend, who sat alongside her and was mugged last week on her way home from the township. To these children, it seems like a way of life where they don’t fret over it, they accept it as an aspect of how they live but they still carry that sense of hope of making a difference or at least for someone to make a difference for them.
Since I am away for the semester I cannot contribute actively to our school paper at SUNY but another volunteer in Ubunye had a brilliant idea to have our contribution to our home paper, be their contribution. And this idea excited the learners past belief. Their faces lit up brighter than Las Vegas from space and their glee glowed through their veins faster than they could even handle.
“When you guys write up your stories we’re going to give you disposable cameras so you can have pictures that help tell your story,” Chrizane said to a group of quite and absorbent girls. When she said that we would give them cameras, their reaction reached the excitement of a 13-year-old American girl seeing Britney Spears or the latest boy band for the first time. Covering their dropped jaws, their white teeth dazzled against their espresso skin- their eyes widened like the parting of the Red Sea, an unexplainable divine phenomenon. Their excitement was about how they could change their lives instead of being excited over the admiration of a corporate entity. The difference and culture clash begins to really take the main stage here.
“Melissa comes all the way from New York! And she is going to help you guys write the best stories you can so that you can see them in print and take them home and have your very own paper,” Chrizane motioned towards me as the entire group of learners now looked at me as they were meeting their face of America, in real life, for the first time.
I never felt such a yielding to my intelligence or my purpose, or even of my defining elements—and for once, someone looked up to me.
The feeling is actually pretty blank- speechless—liberating. I will never trade that feeling for anything material, any amount of money or any benign article, it was the realist moment about living in the present, living in the moment and sucking hard on the juices of the now.
One of the best moments of our session today was at the end, when two shy girls with their blue overcoats and side bags approached us as we gathered our own bags. She handed us this stationary that had bright colored and poignant red strawberries in the corners. Folded over and neatly written were lines of poetry, a personal emancipation of her inner-self, her confession of her emotions stood before us, complete strangers to her. Skimming quickly, I looked up, “this is beautiful. Did you write this yourself?” She nodded and kind of bowed in embarrassment. I flipped the next page backward to find only more of her poetry and as I keep flipping, I found her notes to our session, my words of advice on her small notepad.
Her eyes told me so much. They held a conviction, a truth, a story of struggle and sadness but a pair of glimmering hope that was exemplified by the ink that sat before me on the lined pages of these pieces of parchment. “Can this go in?” Her dark colored hands motioned towards her words and her eyes locked with mine.
“Absolutely,” I said. “Nothing is more perfect.”
The afternoon sun was hiding behind the mountain, as the parted in new directions with new destinations for the next seven days until our next meeting. Their assignment was to think about why type of articles they want to write for their section and to think of a title for their paper. Our assignment is a big more challenging, finding enough funding for the printing, the ability to bring the learners some pencils and paper (most of them had nothing to write with or on) and an afternoon snack—along with getting more organization going amongst ourselves. While this can be very stressful and make it seem like things aren’t worth all the strife and struggle, it’s moment of poetry that make things slow down and make the bureaucratic semantics feel like a needle in the hay.
Ahh, full of vital energy, my kinetic potential of life here has risen to new levels. I cannot even describe how for once, I felt like I belonged here. It started off, kind of normal—with my usual wake up call at 7:15 am- snoozed a few times until 7:40, showered, and went off to call for 9am. From learning about Christianity- my baptized religion, for what seems like the first time, to learning about Print Production in FAM2010S from a jaded journalist who really could give a shit about a bunch of varsity students. My creative vibes got moving, nonetheless and my brain felt alive for the first time since Vermont. In Vermont, I always felt like my creative inhibitions were a sacred part of myself, somehow juxtaposed between the mountains, the cold and the stigma behind the naturalistic ideal of life out of the state. I felt like, you wanted to be a writer; Vermont was the place you found that part of yourself. So I did, for my first year and brought those fundamentals I learned in the small vicinity of Bennington, across the Atlantic, to Cape Town.
I had taken interest in Ubunye during O-Week, orientation my first week of settling in. They promoted themselves as a student run organization that used its resources to set up different schools of media for the townships that surrounded UCT. I immediately took interest in learning more- signed up and waited.
Time in South Africa is something of a lost arch. Somehow disoriented in Pandora’s box, time is paralleled between a maybe and sometime. By the time I heard back from Ubunye it was the 5th week into the term and I had to juggle so much out of the way in order to become involved, but deep down I knew it would be worth it. Or so I was hoping. As todays early morning evolved into the earlier parts of the afternoon, I got an SMS from Chrizane, the head director of the Media School telling me my tutor time is open and that we have a confirmed ride into the township- and to be ready at the Jammie stairs by ten past one. Excited I barreled through the meridian, the large amount of people that congregated at the Jammie stairs for the usual meridian performance of some MTN promotional band (somehow, commercialism never escapes any possible opportunity) and waited. Chrizane, against the South African time standard was ten minutes late of punctuality, but pretty much, on time. We ventured down Main Rd for Tracy, our ride into the township where we would be teaching. Tracy has been in Cape Town for 7 months, coming from the western coast of the states, San Fran, CA.
She drove Chrizane and I, along with a girl from Kansas, mhm, her name… is a blank, but we all ventured together. Since I only just joined and gotten involved, the three other girls seemed pretty involved about the project, talking about organization amongst the volunteers and the concept of responsibility, the concern for funding and the anxiety for writing our own exams before the Spring break. We finally arrived, at about half past 2. The townships that I saw on the way there were picturesque out of a slum movie. Coming for the idealistic, commercial being of the UCT region, the real, down to earth, hardships of places where our school was, it was like stepping into this space between the past and the present. A dividing line stood between myself, Cape Town and what was currently in front of my eyes. The houses were packed closer than any amount of hotels you ever owned on Baltic Avenue in your best game of Monopoly. Stray cats meowed to the chilly sun as they took homage to rooftops and garbage cans, just as desperate at the people that occupied the streets. Graffiti took major art form, in expression of struggle, the dark times of apartheid and the racial division that still stands strong in economical flows throughout the area. The division of white and black stands strong and proud, on both sides—and it was quite evident that I was the odd many out.
The four of us pulled into the Sophumelela Township School at the end of their day of school, as they stood in the courtyard, in full uniform and staring at us. Four white girls from the University step out of the transport taking eminence amongst their simplistic and almost archaic sense of being. Lost, as they were confused, we found the nearest teacher in order to find our learners for the afternoon. Chrizane found a kind woman dressed in jeans and a bright red sweater, her books and registers clustered and clutched tightly into her body. Her smile was as welcoming as American apple pie and her inquisition to our presence was as excited as a little boy who just discovered science in his backyard. She was eager and determined to help us find our learners. Some of the kids, aged in between 13-18 were already involved in the program, so the other volunteers has a better idea to what was going on than me.
Sophumelela carries that old schoolyard ambience that perhaps you see in good independent films that depict a 1960’s British school yard with a tetherball pole, lacking the tetherball and string while also having obsolete classrooms divided obscurely with a singular indication to room number only. They get straight to the point in lacking fancy education attaches (e.g. anything electronic, modern desks or titled floors…) This is raw education carries more of a close reality that is being instilled early on as opposed to 23-24-year old American college graduates that haven’t even seen any other than luxury, a sports utility Utopia of plastic overconsumption an a constitution of ignorance is bliss.
As soon as we were settled in a classroom, we stood before a room full of learners who sat in their dark blue uniforms, the sun shining through the windows and what stood between us and them was a gregarious sense of class, preponderance and titillating speculation. Chrizane is a local South African, relating more to the learners than myself. As she began the lesson plan, I stood before these 20-25 learners totally dumbfounded that I was were I was. The dirty wooden floors, the faded green chalkboards and the clusters of bland wooden tables that had their accompanying scattered chairs around was my audience in stead of being on the other side, looking at the speaker.
Teaching is flipping scary. It’s intimidating and it’s not easy. On the other hand, I’ve been in their shoes in terms of being a student looking at the teacher to run things, to hold structure and to be the source of stability—this was not my time to buckle and feel like my shy, introverted self. Hell, I am in their shoes every single day at varsity, staring blankly at my Professor with the eyes of a bad hangover and the weight of my brain holding me back from any defining ideal of participation. It wasn’t a time where I could really think about what I was going to say- it was a time to just let the punches roll. We introduced the learners into the very basics of journalism, the inverted pyramid of information (Who, What, Where, When, How) and what the purpose of having news is. Most learners source of news was limited to what they had at home, what their parents exposed or not exposed them to and what their friends talked about. As a final project, we want the kids to produce their own newspaper, with our guidance and advice we want them to be able to hold onto something tangible, to bring home and to hopefully cherish as a piece of themselves for their rest of their lives—or at least for the time being. We broke them off into the various sections of their paper. 4 groups divided into Business, Politics, Scandal/Gossip, and Sports. With 4 volunteers, our plans next week are to take our own section, have our group produced 2-3 articles and then publish them in the paper. We guide them into basic news writing, how to write in proper English and how to captivate a reader while building trust with society. They seemed so excited. And motivated. And amazing.
At another townships a few over from where we were, the headmistress was shot in the head last week, due to student rebellion. She was killed. You never get too comfortable here, ever.
“Nice tattoo!” one of the older girls said as she grabbed my wrist and gazed at my tiger lily as if it were sitting her own garden. She is doing a story about crime and her interview—or main source was her friend, who sat alongside her and was mugged last week on her way home from the township. To these children, it seems like a way of life where they don’t fret over it, they accept it as an aspect of how they live but they still carry that sense of hope of making a difference or at least for someone to make a difference for them.
Since I am away for the semester I cannot contribute actively to our school paper at SUNY but another volunteer in Ubunye had a brilliant idea to have our contribution to our home paper, be their contribution. And this idea excited the learners past belief. Their faces lit up brighter than Las Vegas from space and their glee glowed through their veins faster than they could even handle.
“When you guys write up your stories we’re going to give you disposable cameras so you can have pictures that help tell your story,” Chrizane said to a group of quite and absorbent girls. When she said that we would give them cameras, their reaction reached the excitement of a 13-year-old American girl seeing Britney Spears or the latest boy band for the first time. Covering their dropped jaws, their white teeth dazzled against their espresso skin- their eyes widened like the parting of the Red Sea, an unexplainable divine phenomenon. Their excitement was about how they could change their lives instead of being excited over the admiration of a corporate entity. The difference and culture clash begins to really take the main stage here.
“Melissa comes all the way from New York! And she is going to help you guys write the best stories you can so that you can see them in print and take them home and have your very own paper,” Chrizane motioned towards me as the entire group of learners now looked at me as they were meeting their face of America, in real life, for the first time.
I never felt such a yielding to my intelligence or my purpose, or even of my defining elements—and for once, someone looked up to me.
The feeling is actually pretty blank- speechless—liberating. I will never trade that feeling for anything material, any amount of money or any benign article, it was the realist moment about living in the present, living in the moment and sucking hard on the juices of the now.
One of the best moments of our session today was at the end, when two shy girls with their blue overcoats and side bags approached us as we gathered our own bags. She handed us this stationary that had bright colored and poignant red strawberries in the corners. Folded over and neatly written were lines of poetry, a personal emancipation of her inner-self, her confession of her emotions stood before us, complete strangers to her. Skimming quickly, I looked up, “this is beautiful. Did you write this yourself?” She nodded and kind of bowed in embarrassment. I flipped the next page backward to find only more of her poetry and as I keep flipping, I found her notes to our session, my words of advice on her small notepad.
Her eyes told me so much. They held a conviction, a truth, a story of struggle and sadness but a pair of glimmering hope that was exemplified by the ink that sat before me on the lined pages of these pieces of parchment. “Can this go in?” Her dark colored hands motioned towards her words and her eyes locked with mine.
“Absolutely,” I said. “Nothing is more perfect.”
The afternoon sun was hiding behind the mountain, as the parted in new directions with new destinations for the next seven days until our next meeting. Their assignment was to think about why type of articles they want to write for their section and to think of a title for their paper. Our assignment is a big more challenging, finding enough funding for the printing, the ability to bring the learners some pencils and paper (most of them had nothing to write with or on) and an afternoon snack—along with getting more organization going amongst ourselves. While this can be very stressful and make it seem like things aren’t worth all the strife and struggle, it’s moment of poetry that make things slow down and make the bureaucratic semantics feel like a needle in the hay.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Assimilation of the absent minded.
25.08/2009
Assimilation has been on my mind lately. Different cultures require different standards, expectations and ideals. I carry on here day to day, doing pretty much the same things that I do in New York- waking up, usually after 5 snoozes on my alarm, grudgingly going into the shower, heading to class, absorbing massive amounts of information, being overwhelmed, walking back from class feeling confused about life, questioning where or who I am, thinking what I should have for dinner, going for my nightly run, finishing my work out, eating what I thought of about eating, and studying until sleep takes over- and so the cycle beings once again.
The thing about life that I love the most is that it is yours and that you have the ability and the tenacity to change it at your will. So back to assimilation—what will make me more South African? Will it be how I say things, using slang, adhering to the accent…? Will it be what I begin to eat? How I dress? What I do on my free time? I don’t think so. I know by definition ‘to assimilate’ is to take in (information, ideas, or culture) and understand fully. Mhm, that gets my brain warm with thought. Let’s analyze. If I assimilate to the information of South Africa, I can study-, which I do religiously every single day. If I adhere to their ideas, I believe that is a vague assertion- what type of ideas? Political? Religious? Culturally? Mmh. That I am unsure of. If I assimilate to the culture, I will be doing all of the lifestyle concepts I mentioned earlier. Technically, in my mind, I feel like I have been assimilating well. And I’m glad that I got that off my chest. Sometimes, when you walk so far to school, you get stuck on these notions that just get glued into your brain until you get work them out.
I am going to the opera tomorrow night. I’ve been waiting for this specific one to commence at Baxter Theatre, next to lower campus. It’s sung in Italian and it’s a love story- ahh, sounds perfect for a monotonous Wednesday evening. Aside from that, my concentration has been on writing paper after paper so I feel that even my blog entries are becoming more technical sounding and more academically structured. I guess education does rub off. I’m currently working on my first feature article for my Production class. That’s eating up a lot of time and research time.
Thursday we are having a braai (BBQ). Everyone has been under so much stress the past few weeks that it is much needed!
This weekend is the last weekend for shark diving. I’m there. Last weekend I went to the Assembly, a local music venue/bar. Pictures will NOT really be posted due to intense intoxication and the possible embarrassment to my parents and family and most importantly, my reputation. Heh. I clicked on my camera the next day and was informed that I bought three CDs (which I found in my purse stacked along with flyers and pamphelts on car insurance & cable TV), I danced with some kid in high school and apparently thought that I could sing like Lady GaGa. I can’t forget the huge cut on my knee from tripping out of a taxi at 4 am… (SORRY, QUIG- YOU DID TEACH ME BETTER! I’M JUST STUPID. Hey, as you read this, you know that I didn’t drink and drive and all of my fallacies, are funny and innocent.) Oh, vodka- you have taught me my inhibitions can be pushed aside for a while.
*For those of you that do not know, Quig is my mom who is most likely cringing, laughing and shaking her at this blog entry... !
All for now. More updates this weekend. Cheers!
-Mel
Assimilation has been on my mind lately. Different cultures require different standards, expectations and ideals. I carry on here day to day, doing pretty much the same things that I do in New York- waking up, usually after 5 snoozes on my alarm, grudgingly going into the shower, heading to class, absorbing massive amounts of information, being overwhelmed, walking back from class feeling confused about life, questioning where or who I am, thinking what I should have for dinner, going for my nightly run, finishing my work out, eating what I thought of about eating, and studying until sleep takes over- and so the cycle beings once again.
The thing about life that I love the most is that it is yours and that you have the ability and the tenacity to change it at your will. So back to assimilation—what will make me more South African? Will it be how I say things, using slang, adhering to the accent…? Will it be what I begin to eat? How I dress? What I do on my free time? I don’t think so. I know by definition ‘to assimilate’ is to take in (information, ideas, or culture) and understand fully. Mhm, that gets my brain warm with thought. Let’s analyze. If I assimilate to the information of South Africa, I can study-, which I do religiously every single day. If I adhere to their ideas, I believe that is a vague assertion- what type of ideas? Political? Religious? Culturally? Mmh. That I am unsure of. If I assimilate to the culture, I will be doing all of the lifestyle concepts I mentioned earlier. Technically, in my mind, I feel like I have been assimilating well. And I’m glad that I got that off my chest. Sometimes, when you walk so far to school, you get stuck on these notions that just get glued into your brain until you get work them out.
I am going to the opera tomorrow night. I’ve been waiting for this specific one to commence at Baxter Theatre, next to lower campus. It’s sung in Italian and it’s a love story- ahh, sounds perfect for a monotonous Wednesday evening. Aside from that, my concentration has been on writing paper after paper so I feel that even my blog entries are becoming more technical sounding and more academically structured. I guess education does rub off. I’m currently working on my first feature article for my Production class. That’s eating up a lot of time and research time.
Thursday we are having a braai (BBQ). Everyone has been under so much stress the past few weeks that it is much needed!
This weekend is the last weekend for shark diving. I’m there. Last weekend I went to the Assembly, a local music venue/bar. Pictures will NOT really be posted due to intense intoxication and the possible embarrassment to my parents and family and most importantly, my reputation. Heh. I clicked on my camera the next day and was informed that I bought three CDs (which I found in my purse stacked along with flyers and pamphelts on car insurance & cable TV), I danced with some kid in high school and apparently thought that I could sing like Lady GaGa. I can’t forget the huge cut on my knee from tripping out of a taxi at 4 am… (SORRY, QUIG- YOU DID TEACH ME BETTER! I’M JUST STUPID. Hey, as you read this, you know that I didn’t drink and drive and all of my fallacies, are funny and innocent.) Oh, vodka- you have taught me my inhibitions can be pushed aside for a while.
*For those of you that do not know, Quig is my mom who is most likely cringing, laughing and shaking her at this blog entry... !
All for now. More updates this weekend. Cheers!
-Mel
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
1 Month Reflection...
19/08/2009
It’s been some time since I last wrote. Things have gotten challenging with my timetable and having a social life, that the computer doesn’t really seem to be that important any more. Or at least, I’m trying to stay away from it…
Either way, I have to update once in a while. Nothing too exciting lately, just straight lectures and studying. Last Wednesday was my friend from North Carolina’s birthday so we gathered up everyone that lives around us and went out for a nice dinner on Long St. Mama Africa was everything the name implies- full of African culture, dark romance, and mysterious sounds, it created an atmosphere I only dream of re-creating. 20 of us reserved a table and looked so foreign in such a home driven restaurant, but none of us cared. The walls were decorated with gigantic paper mache lamps in shapes of crocodiles and springboks. Dimly lit and very nicely heated, it gave us a sense of African cuisine. The menu: your arrangement of wild game e.g. crocodile, ostrich, springbok, calamari. Other dishes (aka the vegetarian dishes) were a vegetable bake which was the dish I got, full of beans, cheese, carrots, mushrooms all baked into one dish- very, very tasty. Another option was the stuffed butternut squash, which one of my friends had and was very tasty as well. I did figure that I was in Africa and that I need to try as many things as I can while I am here—so I sucked up my vegetarian morals and had some ostrich, a delicacy in Africa. Needless to say, it resembled the taste of steak and rumor has it, you can’t overcook ostrich because it’s so tender, apparently. I couldn’t get the nerve to try a reptile so I stuck to my sampling of ostrich, washed it down with my merlot and went about my way, deep into conversation.
Sunday, the 16th, marked my one-month anniversary of being in South Africa. As I walk to and fro school everyday, I think about what I have learned and what is different from home, what I miss and what I don’t miss,etc. My list always changes and very few things remain staple, but as I recall it goes as follows:
I MISS:
1. My bed. 2. My kitty. 3. My family, of course. && friends. 4. Uncommon Grounds bagels. 5. Bomber’s. 6. Grey Goose. 7. Gasp! NY heat. 8. The smell of my clothes after they get out of the dryer. 9. Being familiar with things.(this something that you take for granted when you’re home. You don’t know what you’re so accustomed to things that once you removed from everything you know, it’s habit to go back to what you do at home. In other countries, if you do that, you are more lost).
WHAT I’VE LEARNED, so far.
You have to ask for the cheque at restaurants, otherwise you sit there for an hour, looking lost and wondering. Saying bye is an insult. American is perceived as everything horrible but something everyone envies. Tabloids are called glossies. Magazines are called just Mags and men’s magazines are called Lad Mags. They love entertainment news, especially from the states. To go is called take away. You have to ask for tap water if you don’t want still, but most order still, not bottled. It rains in winter. And it rains an awful lot- and it’s horrible. Horrible is actually an understatement. When a shuttle bus sloshes you on your way home from lecture and from head to toe you are solid water, you begin to wonder what the desert fells like and how great it would be. For the rooibos capital of the world, that’s really the only tea they have. That and Ceylon and of course green. Bah, no oolong, no white and not very much herbal. My tea addiction is lacking. You press your coffee you don’t use automakers. If you ask for a large coffee, you get blank stares- let’s reiterate, long Americano or short Americano. Either way, you order anything with American in the name and you are one, which warrants the blank stare nonetheless. Most java drinkers like cappuccino or straight espresso. They drive on the other side of the road and I still after a month always ask, why are they on the wrong side of the road?! The only SUV car I’ve seen is the Land/Range Roover, no Escalades, Yukons, Navigators, etc. Tiny cars, usually Volkswagen or BMW. South Africa LOVES COCA-COLA. It’s almost as if they need it to survive. AIDS is a very, very, very real thing here, not just something you hear about if you are in school and learning how to use a condom in health class. A professor at UCT, who was supposed to be my production prof, died last week from HIV/AIDS. There is daily testing free on campus and throughout the town. It’s scary and realistic, something that America should start concentrating more on. Much more homelessness, very many people who literally curl up on the street side and snuggle with the cement wall with a tattered blanket, some have corrugated cardboard and if they are lucky, a knit hat. Whenever I go out to eat and don’t finish my meal, which is almost always—I give my leftovers to a lonely man on the street. You don’t know what happiness looks like until you see a face of a starving, cold man see food for the first time in weeks. You also understand the definition of being grateful and charity. The Internet isn’t as big here as it is home. Most people check the Internet on their phones than on laptops. Fancy electronics are not very popular because they are expensive. Cops carry rifles on the regular, in shopping malls, the grocery market, etc. Frightening, but scary for someone like myself not really used to seeing a fully armed large black man greeting me a pleasant morning with a rifle pinned to his side the size of my body. Needless to say, you greet back with enthusiasm.
Saying, “Ill see you later” means nothing. You have to add in when or a guess to when. So you say either I’ll see you just now, I’ll see you now now, or I’ll see you now. Just now= in a few days. Now now= in a few hours. Now= maybe I’ll never see you or maybe I’ll see you in a week. A very strange concept that I’m still adjusting to.
No matter how much Americans try to blend it, our backpacks and sneakers make us stick out peanut M&Ms compared to regular M&Ms.
I hate, absolutely hate, how people smoke everywhere. That’s one thing I love about home in a way. Here, there are no smoking laws in regards to restaurants or bars or the streets. And almost everyone smokes so smoke is everywhere. My asthma wants to rebel against my body already with the dry humidity let a lone the great smell of cancer streaming up to my nostrils every ten feet.
I’ll never talk in Celsius or kilos or anything metric. I have tried and it just leaves me confused. Numbers have never been my thing.
The only night people don’t drink is Monday and that’s only if you are sick or have a family emergency. Sundays you are not allowed to buy alcohol. Wine is sold in the market but beer is sold in bottle stores. Social lives are super important and if you’re not in, it’s hard to get in—but when you have an American accent, it makes for interesting conversation ranging from ‘did you vote for Bush?’ to ‘what the hell is this football thing?’
Ahh, that’s all I can remember for now. Spring break is in 2 weeks and I’m thinking of going to Africa Burns, which is considerably comparable to Woodstock 1969 minus Janis Joplin and the LSD. You drive 2 hours north of Cape Town and camp in a cell phone restricted area for 4 days, without shower or anything electric and just listen to the coolest music, hang out with friends and hike. It’s going to be a blast! I’m pretty stoked. I was considering ending up to Egypt for the week, but flights are too pricey and I’m going to see if I can get a discount for a ticket more towards December when I’m out of school and I have a few weeks before I head back to NY. Shark diving is a possibility this weekend, finally. After a week and half of rain and being sick, I finally get to see a shark an inch or so away from my face. Other things on my future agenda, sky diving, bungee jumping, tenting on Table Mountain and scuba diving.
I hope things in NY aren’t too warm and that things are winding down for the Fall.
Cheers,
Mel
Monday, August 10, 2009
Science amazes me.
09/08/2009
This weekend was gorgeous, finally! After pretty much a solid week of rain, the sun shined right into my window this morning and I couldn’t be more excited. Not only is today Women’s Day, but also it’s a Sunday where tomorrow we have no lectures. Three-day weekends are the best. At 7 am this duck that decided to perch itself next to my window and sing for the world to hear, woke me up, grudgingly. I tried to fall back asleep for a few more hours and he was just not having it- bah. Ben attempted at murder but throwing one of our lemons from the lemon tree that grows on the garden patio at the duck and his accomplice. Ben negatively failed but succeeded in throwing the lemon at the neighbors’ roof.
“Ohhh, shit!” When Germans swear, it cracks me up, every time.
Andrew and I decided that today we were going to the Botanical Gardens in Kirstenbosch. We gathered Ben and Jessica to join us. We called a taxi and went into one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever seen. The entrance way was confected with indigenous looking statues, mostly of naked women- mhm, and of strange animals that may or may not be a cat/bird? After the entrance, you feel completely enveloped into something unreal- or at least something that you thought only existed in movies and books. Time stopped. Your heart fills with this feeling that everything in the world that ails you, doesn’t matter—you are here, in this sanctuary of beauty, peace and serenity. And that is all that matters. If you feel stressed or depressed or anything- go there to make things make sense. If I ever get married (god forbid) it will be there. And I don’t care how much it costs every guest to fly there; it will be worth every penny when your soul and body finally get a chance to meet.
It was like I was 10 again, being the tomboy and climbing trees. They have numerous hiking trails, natural waterfalls, picnic areas and amazing plants. Some were healing plants, some were just beautiful flowers that bathe in the South African sun, others are just strange, amazing—but strange. As we discovered new things, I just couldn’t actually believe that a place like that actually existed. And better off, I was standing in the heart of it. We took a moderate hike higher so that we could see parts of the city (another weekend I will go there for a sole purpose of hiking—the trails looked awesome!).. but the city view we saw from a low elevation was remarkable.
When those points in life seem unbearable, where you really think you’re not going to get through it—all you need is some great new perspective that will vivaciously help you. I came to South Africa not expecting the cliché. I suspended any other preconceived notion and just dove right in. As I stood in the middle of a stream today, watching crystal clear water naturally flow off of rocks, I could feel the world resting in my hands. I could see how the earth was created and why, I could see why we all must be decent to each other and why sometimes when things just are too much, you need to take a step back and think, the world is a huge abyss of creation- be apart of it. Get your hands dirty and feel what is around you. That’s usually the problem- you need to ground yourself again. In the hastiness of everyday life, people forget their surroundings, what is happening outside of their bubble. Stepping away from it will not only pop it but also prevent it from ever getting enough oxygen to fill up again.
After spending a few hours, we all decided we were pretty hungry. We called Mark, our new taxi man to come fetch us. We went to Cavendish and at Osumo, a great little smoothie/health food place. So fresh! The cool thing about food here when you order, you get the correct portion size and the dish usually doesn’t have anything but the main concentration- so no chips or fries, sometimes salad. Being healthy is everywhere. And I love it.
The rest of the afternoon I worked on a paper drank tea and relaxed. Happy Woman’s Day to me!
-Mel
Friday, August 7, 2009
Religious eschatologies.
Again, another collection throughout the week.
05/08/2009
August, aye? Wow, time does seem to take flight. Week 2 of lectures—ahh, what can I say? Is it holiday yet?
I forgot how tired I get going to class everyday and packing in tons of information, not to mention digesting it all and applying it to the realities of this so called life.
More rain this week- add more wind, darker and gloomier during the day. Oh, winter.
I’ve been thinking more and more on what I want to do AFTER college and when I am forced to grow up and not just live vicariously through lectures. Peace Corps? Maybe.
06/08/2009
Religion class got me thinking about my ethics and my own moral, self-judgment. In ancient Persia, when you die you go through a three-day journey of self-judgment. You cross a bridge that can either lead to heaven where life is full of great music; beautiful smells and it will be your eternal paradise or the hot, uncomfortable realities of hell. The trick was that the path is narrow and in the middle of the journey you are met by a spiritual being, Daena. Daena could be either a beautiful figure or an ugly one, depending on how you have held your image within yourself your entire mortal life. Daena would show you your ethics, your morals and make a clear divide on what is right and wrong. If you saw Daena as beautiful, then you held respect for yourself, you led a morally correct life and you were then brought into the House of Song or heaven. If your Daena was ugly, the bridge broke and you fell into the underworld- that smelt horrible, the noise was unbearable and it was dark for eternity.
This leads me to questioning whom my Daena look like and what would happen in the middle of the bridge? In the underworld you were then met by all of your druj or all of your lies and wrong doings in life. They surround you forever and you never are rid of them, the true punishment of falling through the bridge into the flames of hell.
Is it horrible if you do not accurately know what world you would be taken to? I feel like you should know what type of life you have led and you should be able to see your own self-judgment before you meet Daena. Yet, I still struggle in seeing the truth or any clarity.
Are you blind your whole life until that three-day journey, where you finally realize it and by then it’s too late to make a difference? And what if you do realize you were morally wrong a part of your life but you calibrated into a revitalized spirit and devoted your life to a morally correct lifestyle? Are you still deemed to meet the ugly Daena?
Long weekend this weekend. August 10 is Women’s Day. No lectures. It’s supposed to be nice- a great break from the week of rain. I’ve almost been here a month and to me, it seems like I just arrived.
I shall venture this weekend to new places. I’m determined to get off of Main Road for a while. Maybe by the end of the weekend I can figure out what my Daena will look like. Let’s hope it’s not in my reality for a few more years—yikes!
I met an interesting character today at Café Le Grind. He was looking for someone to make his documentary about his journey throughout South Africa while he donated stationary to underprivileged villages. The 45-day journey cuts into my UCT research, therefore and regretting my decision, I had to decline a great opportunity of really seeing South Africa. Something like that is what I’m looking for and what I ache to do. He was a great guy though.
“Africa is like a bug under your skin and before you know it, you’ve devoted your life to it.”
Le Grind has great coffee. And an excellent atmosphere that helps to absorb some more Cape Town culture, hospitality and intellectual thought.
Cheers for now,
*Mel
05/08/2009
August, aye? Wow, time does seem to take flight. Week 2 of lectures—ahh, what can I say? Is it holiday yet?
I forgot how tired I get going to class everyday and packing in tons of information, not to mention digesting it all and applying it to the realities of this so called life.
More rain this week- add more wind, darker and gloomier during the day. Oh, winter.
I’ve been thinking more and more on what I want to do AFTER college and when I am forced to grow up and not just live vicariously through lectures. Peace Corps? Maybe.
06/08/2009
Religion class got me thinking about my ethics and my own moral, self-judgment. In ancient Persia, when you die you go through a three-day journey of self-judgment. You cross a bridge that can either lead to heaven where life is full of great music; beautiful smells and it will be your eternal paradise or the hot, uncomfortable realities of hell. The trick was that the path is narrow and in the middle of the journey you are met by a spiritual being, Daena. Daena could be either a beautiful figure or an ugly one, depending on how you have held your image within yourself your entire mortal life. Daena would show you your ethics, your morals and make a clear divide on what is right and wrong. If you saw Daena as beautiful, then you held respect for yourself, you led a morally correct life and you were then brought into the House of Song or heaven. If your Daena was ugly, the bridge broke and you fell into the underworld- that smelt horrible, the noise was unbearable and it was dark for eternity.
This leads me to questioning whom my Daena look like and what would happen in the middle of the bridge? In the underworld you were then met by all of your druj or all of your lies and wrong doings in life. They surround you forever and you never are rid of them, the true punishment of falling through the bridge into the flames of hell.
Is it horrible if you do not accurately know what world you would be taken to? I feel like you should know what type of life you have led and you should be able to see your own self-judgment before you meet Daena. Yet, I still struggle in seeing the truth or any clarity.
Are you blind your whole life until that three-day journey, where you finally realize it and by then it’s too late to make a difference? And what if you do realize you were morally wrong a part of your life but you calibrated into a revitalized spirit and devoted your life to a morally correct lifestyle? Are you still deemed to meet the ugly Daena?
Long weekend this weekend. August 10 is Women’s Day. No lectures. It’s supposed to be nice- a great break from the week of rain. I’ve almost been here a month and to me, it seems like I just arrived.
I shall venture this weekend to new places. I’m determined to get off of Main Road for a while. Maybe by the end of the weekend I can figure out what my Daena will look like. Let’s hope it’s not in my reality for a few more years—yikes!
I met an interesting character today at Café Le Grind. He was looking for someone to make his documentary about his journey throughout South Africa while he donated stationary to underprivileged villages. The 45-day journey cuts into my UCT research, therefore and regretting my decision, I had to decline a great opportunity of really seeing South Africa. Something like that is what I’m looking for and what I ache to do. He was a great guy though.
“Africa is like a bug under your skin and before you know it, you’ve devoted your life to it.”
Le Grind has great coffee. And an excellent atmosphere that helps to absorb some more Cape Town culture, hospitality and intellectual thought.
Cheers for now,
*Mel
Friday, July 31, 2009
FHM, Esquire, GQ- Marie Claire?!?
This entry has a lot of entries throughout the week, I just haven't been really posting because I've been so busy.
Sunday, 26/07/2009
“It was so tempting. He was just soooo nnniiiice. And we thought—not everybody is a bad person---,” Ben’s narrative on the man who sold us the shittiest chocolate bars in all the world as we sat at The Company’s Garden watching a wedding. They were aerated chocolate and tasted like they may or may not have been tasty back in Easter of 1990.
Lesson learned: don’t fall for good sales pitches from men wearing a cardboard box around his neck full of foreign looking candy bars and promotes that they haven’t expired, they are safe and mostly delicious.
Thursday, 30/07/2009
Just came back from a refreshing run in the rain- slipped on a loading dock, took a turn too quick and met the concrete. Aye, blood always makes things look worse than they are. Just keep running, right? Just adds more character to my beat up body ☺
This week has been hectic and busy, full of lectures and reading. I have found that academic life here is much more involved that at good old SUNY, in good ways and in bad. I’m not used to things yet, obviously, so I’m a bit culture shocked—to say the least. As I’m beginning to forget that it’s July and that I’m already in school, my academic life here is going to be rewarding. The courses are perfect for what I want to do with my B.A. in hopes of continuing for my masters.
As my religion Prof. put it, “When you get your B.A. what do you? You get your Masters. After your Masters, you get your Ph.D. After that you get unemployment.”
Or as my Production Prof. put it, “When you can’t do, you teach.”
Hopeful words of wisdom, that I find to be two bits of actual useful information, blunt honesty is my favorite, even if it stings a little.
Needless to say, I hope my outcome isn’t as gloomy as these jaded professors make it out to be, but I’m still young and somewhat optimistic about media.
On the other end of things, I’ve been trying to get out and do as many things as I can while I’m here. As much as I miss home, I need to see what the city is really about. Over the weekend we went to Canvendish, a great mall full of awesome stores, movies theatres, cafes and bookshops. We also went to the Market, where your more bargain shopping happens. It’s much more of a give and take trading, full of local fabrics and crafts. Oh and such amazing artwork.
The last weekend before lectures started, we tried to relax but do as much as we could before times got tight and stress ensued.
Friday, 31/07/2009
I thought I knew what I wanted to do, in terms of journalism, that’s the beauty of it, you find your niche and you stick to it. Although, like everything in life, you learn to change- you can’t be the same forever (who would want to be?), but I’ve taken a lot of interest in production design and media layouts. Which is so fun! At lecture, we have access to great equipment like Photoshop, Dreamweaver and so many other editing tools that it’s the closest to heaven I’ve been on Earth before. I’m such a nerd, but it’s going to be a great term if it keeps up the way it’s been going.
My dream: work for Rolling Stone, write a book and be an international correspondent for the NYT. HAHAHAA. RIGHT. I found that researching journalism here, the money isn't in writing, it's in production, designing-- basically whatever it takes to sell a paper or website is where you should be concentrating on. Sure, I'd love to be among the likes of Hunter S. Thompson, Truman Capote, Hemingway, Mailer, etc, but I can always idolize and strive to achieve the accomplishments of the greats.
Popularity of news pieces here are interesting. I picked up some mags from the market and it was a unique blend of journalism that people swear their life by. Cosmo in huge along with Glamour, Elle, Marie Clair, FHM (which news to me, is a guys mag and I bought one not even looking at the chicks mostly naked on the cover and was eager to read it. Oh, ignorance you follow me everywhere... ) GQ is also quite big, along with Men's Health. Not a lot of hardcore journalism mags outside of Time and Newsweek. Just goes to show that America has a great standard for journalism (not ideal) but it really is everywhere.
I found some great South African music on SL's site: check it out! www.slmagazine.co.za. They have streaming playlists that are pretty awesome.
I don't want to get paid tons of money for writing or doing things with my degree. I want to feel the passion and respect that I feel when I read something that changes my view just a little bit, I want to change that for someone as the idols of my life have changed mine. You don't always have to hate your job-- at least, if you follow your heart, even if it's a poorly paid career, not the BEST working conditions, or even a promising future. To me, writing is about what's inside, it's what you already have not about what money can buy. It's that piece of literature or that one quote that makes you see what life is here for.
* * *
Tonight, I’m going out with Marthe, my housemate, to some fancy restaurant that I have to head to the mall and find a decent looking outfit for. My stained jeans and cardigan wouldn’t fly. Bummer. Plus, my knees look like I’m domestically abused so wearing a dress or skirt may just be out of the question. Again, bummer.
Just as North America has gotten massive amounts of rain, so has Africa. When it rains here it doesn’t rain down, it rains horizontally. I weigh roughly 45 kilos (100 lbs) and when that mountain wind mixes with pelting rain, I just about fall over. They don’t lie about needing a raincoat. Umbrellas are a joke because they just can’t take it and seize to last you to your destination. Another thing to add to the shopping list: a raincoat. I walked up to lecture today, which from my flat is about 1.6 kilometers (1 mile) and by the time I got to my religion lecture, I looked like I had showered in my clothes. Plus it’s cold! That tingly feeling you get in your toes, when you feel like a million needles are burrowing into your skin and that pain you get when in Upstate NY gets its winter, you want to move to the other side of the world-- because, you... just... can't... take... it...
So I looked like a hot mess this morning. Luckily, I misread my timetable and to my advantage just had that one course today, yess! The walk down on the other hand, not so nice! The rain picked up even more, the streets are really narrow as it is and everything began to flood. Cars in the city don't give a shit about pedestrians and find it comical to find the deepest deposit of rain and splash it all over you at street corners. Thanks! Swimming home is my new hobby and I returned even more wet, which I didn’t think I could get more drenched, and I’m going to work on my writing today in my warm, DRY clothes.
As Ben just stated, “WHO ORDERED THIS MESS?”
As the rain hits the roof and the sounds of little beads permanently places itself as my soundtrack, I’m getting used to being here. I thought I wasn’t able to, but I know that it has taken a positive take on me and that my perspective of life has opened up tenfold.
Pretty boring blog this entry, sorry. It’s been a hectic week in the not so great way. More to come this weekend, I’m sure.
Cheers,
Mel
Sunday, 26/07/2009
“It was so tempting. He was just soooo nnniiiice. And we thought—not everybody is a bad person---,” Ben’s narrative on the man who sold us the shittiest chocolate bars in all the world as we sat at The Company’s Garden watching a wedding. They were aerated chocolate and tasted like they may or may not have been tasty back in Easter of 1990.
Lesson learned: don’t fall for good sales pitches from men wearing a cardboard box around his neck full of foreign looking candy bars and promotes that they haven’t expired, they are safe and mostly delicious.
Thursday, 30/07/2009
Just came back from a refreshing run in the rain- slipped on a loading dock, took a turn too quick and met the concrete. Aye, blood always makes things look worse than they are. Just keep running, right? Just adds more character to my beat up body ☺
This week has been hectic and busy, full of lectures and reading. I have found that academic life here is much more involved that at good old SUNY, in good ways and in bad. I’m not used to things yet, obviously, so I’m a bit culture shocked—to say the least. As I’m beginning to forget that it’s July and that I’m already in school, my academic life here is going to be rewarding. The courses are perfect for what I want to do with my B.A. in hopes of continuing for my masters.
As my religion Prof. put it, “When you get your B.A. what do you? You get your Masters. After your Masters, you get your Ph.D. After that you get unemployment.”
Or as my Production Prof. put it, “When you can’t do, you teach.”
Hopeful words of wisdom, that I find to be two bits of actual useful information, blunt honesty is my favorite, even if it stings a little.
Needless to say, I hope my outcome isn’t as gloomy as these jaded professors make it out to be, but I’m still young and somewhat optimistic about media.
On the other end of things, I’ve been trying to get out and do as many things as I can while I’m here. As much as I miss home, I need to see what the city is really about. Over the weekend we went to Canvendish, a great mall full of awesome stores, movies theatres, cafes and bookshops. We also went to the Market, where your more bargain shopping happens. It’s much more of a give and take trading, full of local fabrics and crafts. Oh and such amazing artwork.
The last weekend before lectures started, we tried to relax but do as much as we could before times got tight and stress ensued.
Friday, 31/07/2009
I thought I knew what I wanted to do, in terms of journalism, that’s the beauty of it, you find your niche and you stick to it. Although, like everything in life, you learn to change- you can’t be the same forever (who would want to be?), but I’ve taken a lot of interest in production design and media layouts. Which is so fun! At lecture, we have access to great equipment like Photoshop, Dreamweaver and so many other editing tools that it’s the closest to heaven I’ve been on Earth before. I’m such a nerd, but it’s going to be a great term if it keeps up the way it’s been going.
My dream: work for Rolling Stone, write a book and be an international correspondent for the NYT. HAHAHAA. RIGHT. I found that researching journalism here, the money isn't in writing, it's in production, designing-- basically whatever it takes to sell a paper or website is where you should be concentrating on. Sure, I'd love to be among the likes of Hunter S. Thompson, Truman Capote, Hemingway, Mailer, etc, but I can always idolize and strive to achieve the accomplishments of the greats.
Popularity of news pieces here are interesting. I picked up some mags from the market and it was a unique blend of journalism that people swear their life by. Cosmo in huge along with Glamour, Elle, Marie Clair, FHM (which news to me, is a guys mag and I bought one not even looking at the chicks mostly naked on the cover and was eager to read it. Oh, ignorance you follow me everywhere... ) GQ is also quite big, along with Men's Health. Not a lot of hardcore journalism mags outside of Time and Newsweek. Just goes to show that America has a great standard for journalism (not ideal) but it really is everywhere.
I found some great South African music on SL's site: check it out! www.slmagazine.co.za. They have streaming playlists that are pretty awesome.
I don't want to get paid tons of money for writing or doing things with my degree. I want to feel the passion and respect that I feel when I read something that changes my view just a little bit, I want to change that for someone as the idols of my life have changed mine. You don't always have to hate your job-- at least, if you follow your heart, even if it's a poorly paid career, not the BEST working conditions, or even a promising future. To me, writing is about what's inside, it's what you already have not about what money can buy. It's that piece of literature or that one quote that makes you see what life is here for.
* * *
Tonight, I’m going out with Marthe, my housemate, to some fancy restaurant that I have to head to the mall and find a decent looking outfit for. My stained jeans and cardigan wouldn’t fly. Bummer. Plus, my knees look like I’m domestically abused so wearing a dress or skirt may just be out of the question. Again, bummer.
Just as North America has gotten massive amounts of rain, so has Africa. When it rains here it doesn’t rain down, it rains horizontally. I weigh roughly 45 kilos (100 lbs) and when that mountain wind mixes with pelting rain, I just about fall over. They don’t lie about needing a raincoat. Umbrellas are a joke because they just can’t take it and seize to last you to your destination. Another thing to add to the shopping list: a raincoat. I walked up to lecture today, which from my flat is about 1.6 kilometers (1 mile) and by the time I got to my religion lecture, I looked like I had showered in my clothes. Plus it’s cold! That tingly feeling you get in your toes, when you feel like a million needles are burrowing into your skin and that pain you get when in Upstate NY gets its winter, you want to move to the other side of the world-- because, you... just... can't... take... it...
So I looked like a hot mess this morning. Luckily, I misread my timetable and to my advantage just had that one course today, yess! The walk down on the other hand, not so nice! The rain picked up even more, the streets are really narrow as it is and everything began to flood. Cars in the city don't give a shit about pedestrians and find it comical to find the deepest deposit of rain and splash it all over you at street corners. Thanks! Swimming home is my new hobby and I returned even more wet, which I didn’t think I could get more drenched, and I’m going to work on my writing today in my warm, DRY clothes.
As Ben just stated, “WHO ORDERED THIS MESS?”
As the rain hits the roof and the sounds of little beads permanently places itself as my soundtrack, I’m getting used to being here. I thought I wasn’t able to, but I know that it has taken a positive take on me and that my perspective of life has opened up tenfold.
Pretty boring blog this entry, sorry. It’s been a hectic week in the not so great way. More to come this weekend, I’m sure.
Cheers,
Mel
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Just keep climbing.
What a beautiful Saturday morning. I woke up to kids playing next door and a baby crying, heh. Did the dishes. Just made some toast, cut up a fresh apple, pressed some coffee and now I’m enjoying it all on the patio with little Rastafarian (my neighbors black kitty). She’s just playing with the leaves that have fallen off some of the trees and asking me to share my breakfast with me… ☺
Yesterday was a great day- very tiring, but very awesome. We had registration yesterday, which wasn’t the most eventful, and waiting in very long queues forever! Step after step I became a registered student- I enrolled in four courses that will award me with 14 credits when I return home, that means only 15 more I think until graduation in May. Power, Media, and Culture; Print Journalism Production; International Politics; Christianity, Muslim and Islam are my courses I chose for the term. I tried to take a load of well-rounded courses. It was difficult to get into the media courses without having taken any of their pre-requirements. I was going to take another one but I had to go to the Prof for permission—so being me, I did try to find him.
I went to the Film and Media Centre where I had no idea where to go but after being a lost dog, I found what I thought was the reception area, where two adults were conversing—so I approached them and said, “Excuse me, but I was looking for Dr. Chumo’s office, do you happen.,.” and I was cut off. The gentleman (who was far from one) stormed out muttering that he can’t stand how rude people can be and the woman was like, “are you an international student? I suppose we need to teach you some manners so you can bring them home with you. You’re American, aye?”
The thing about South African attitude that I’ve found is that they say it all with a great smile and still somehow make you feel like your two inches high just because you’re American or whatever else. I again proposed my problem and she said, “That man that just stormed out is whom you need to speak to but I suggest being polite when you speak to him.” I thought I was polite! Anyway I found rude man and knocked on his door as I was instructed and the only thing he said, “American, you’re following me! WHY??” Oh god, I just decided to take another course instead of another journalism course, my time hadn’t started off very well and I was concerned that he may be one of my professors. I do not want to start off that way so I apologized, played the ignorant-I’m-from-New-York card and called it a day. Registered for some other interesting courses.
I also decided that I am going to do Mountain and Ski club where they arrange different trips around Cape Town to go hiking and exploring—so it’s a good way to see more of the city and not just be stuck around the University. I’m digging out my adventurous side that I got from who knows where and use it to my advantage. In Upstate New York there really aren’t many places to express that side of you, when you’re bogged down with assignments and responsibilities. I’ve found some dividing differences living in New York and living here. While here you’re not totally void of a social conscious, you want to do so many things—the stress and pressure doesn’t hinder over you like a black cloud ready to burst. It’s much more of a mindset of assurance, that it will get done and that you just don’t have to worry about it—it’s more about having more faith in yourself than leaning onto others for an approval.
Life is about living, not worrying about how to live.
After the paperwork yesterday morning--- a bunch of us got together and went hiking. It was perfect yesterday, a slight breeze and warmth in the sun. There are so many hiking paths on the campus that lead you onto Table Mountain or Devil’s Peak. There are so many that it’s hard to choose what path you want to take. We really didn’t have a plan per say, so we just went for it. We saw the Rhoades memorial built right next to the school—well there many, but this one was awesome. It had Egyptian like lions kneeing in honor of him and a plaque under Cecil that acknowledged he was a genius. It was interesting as you got higher into the hike to see the city shrink in size but expand with perspective. By the time we reached the finishing point, which we were hoping we would get to Devil’s Peak, but the sun went against us and decided to set a little. At where we stopped, you could see the two oceans, the Indian and the Atlantic, Hout Bay, False Bay, Cape Town Airport, the University and so many other things. It was time stopping. All the work to get up there was totally worth it and completely worth any hardships in life—it erases all the bad times, those time you felt down about a bad grade, a bad relationship, an underprepared for bill, whatever ills your mood—this took it away and reminded you that you have life in your hands and that this in front of you in yours to capture and take advantage of. While having that power it also reminds you that remaining kind to nature is just as important—having all of that beauty right in front of me, the naturally gorgeous energy that pumps through Earth’s veins places an importance in my everyday life not only to take time to remember it’s there but also to respect it whenever possible.
On top of the mountain the wind took me over and I legitamatley thought I was going to fall off a cliff- but it was such a force of nature that kept me feeling comfortable. It was almost as if Mother Nature was having fun with us, letting us experience the power and energy that the Earth has. Truly a magical adrenaline rush.
Today is up in the air, maybe figuring out how to use the washing machine—I should have paid more attention when the cleaning lady was showing us. None of us can figure it out so I don’t feel so bad. I have caught some light cold but it’s annoying to being trying to do things with a runny nose. Maybe take a jog around the canal will jumpstart me a bit.
I have two days left of summer vacation! I might as well make use of it because in a few weeks time, if it’s anything like home- I will be praying for time off.
More soon.
Ciao,
*Mel
Thursday, July 23, 2009
It was rainy and cold all day—all I wanted to do was curl into my blankets and sleep. Orientation has been incredibly tiring and somewhat demanding, leaving us with very little time to relax and actually conclude we are in a different country. In the morning my flatmates and I hiked up to UCT and had a lecture about how to set up your PC and things… pretty boring. Although, after that we were informed about some of to clubs/societies/organizations we want to join. We get a max of 3 to join for free and then you have to pay for extra ones for the term. The cost is only around $3 but after you join 3 it becomes a salsa dance with time and scheduling. No bueno.
They showed us one called Ubunyu- an organization that helps to teach school from kindergarten to senior year and you can pick what concentration out of the three they offer. They have a Media School that assigns you a small group of children and you teach them how to become journalists so much so that you get to develop a newspaper with them and by the end of the term your finished product is an actual paper. That got me so excited.
Journalism and news is one of my only genuine passions in life, to record and capture what many in certain societies would never see I believe to be one of the more important aspects of living. While consequently always taking time to record life prevents you from living, finding the balance of story telling and living is where the challenge comes in and that what I hope to instill as an American journalist in an area that has little media freedom. Aside from Ubunyu, the orientation group took us to a SHAWCO area. SHAWCO is one of the oldest organizations in the area that helps not only children but everyone in the community. They have various centers throughout Cape Town that preschool small children, make a music centre from young teens and have an elderly centre.
It was breathtaking to see the levels of poverty that outside of where I am staying is only a 20-minute drive and is like night and day. I live in a very rich area opposed to where these people live, in shacks and in really dangerous end of things. We arrived and you could hear the children dancing and laughing, a sound that cascaded light into such a dark area. Their playground would be considered boring in America, no bright plastic monstrosities, simple wooden contraptions that allow kids to imagine reaching the sky and feeling like nothing can hurt them anymore—as I did when I was little on top of the school castle. The simple swing set blew and danced in the wind, almost inviting you to enjoy the groovy path it took you, an up and down, back and forth ideal that replicates the repetition of life. Unbeknownst to young children playgrounds represent so much, which they will only begin to understand so much later in life and the sad part, some never realize it.
As one of my new African friends told me, “It seems as you get older, you forget the essentials—you laugh less, you cry less and you become more immune.”
And when people continually ask me “Why Africa?” I’m going to give then Frans number.
We got a tour of the centre where we first went into the childrens’ hall. Twenty or so were fast asleep in little rows on the floor, rolling in blankets like hot dogs. The next room was the snack room where a group of about the same size was eating rice and something orange? They wore smocks and were interacting with each other by stealing grains of rice and throwing it at their neighbor, giggling and then looking to see if the conveyor saw them. And if they weren’t caught they gave each other a high five. Some kids waved to us when we entered, others were shyer. I can imagine the scary situation they must have felt when 30 foreigners walk in and just stare at them. One little boy was so animated, he thought he was Spiderman and posed when I asked them if they want to see what their picture looks like. They loved the attention we gave them and whined when we had to leave and move on to the music area. It was sad to leave the room full of their artwork and the beginning memories of their life that when they look back on someday they will envy the simplicity of it all.
The music room was neat. Young adults were discovering they had talent. The group performed their songs for us that they wrote and that they plan on going to a local club on Long St. to expose themselves a bit more. The life experiences they share and incorporate into their music was evident along with their admiration towards making music art.
We also visited the elderly section where they were busy with making beaded necklaces. They were confused to why their were so many people around them but once they understood they gave us advice, “Once you finish you studies at UCT, carry your youth with you wherever you go—even if your body ditches it, your mind never does.”
The rest of the day made me think a lot about how I want to spend my time and my brain was tired from all the possibilities. After a delicious lunch at Kaui, I took a nap for about 3 hours, my body was telling me sleep was necessary.
My friends and I wanted to go out downtown because today we had our first day off since we’ve been here. We heard of this great bar called Roots, it’s an inside beach and a techno dance club. Sounds crazy but it’s really a laid back place. The entire night only cost me $10 and it was one of best nights here. There are these chicks that walk around in leather jump suits with whips and offer you shooters or shots for only R9 about $1.15 a shot. The shots here are tiny but the alcohol in them is 40% by volume. Black widow vodka is awesome. I met a lot of locals that were very nice and loved to talk to me about my tattoos. I was watching the soccer game that was playing at the bar and some guy asked me what team I like and the only soccer team I know of is Manchester United, so that’s what I said and ironically they were playing against Malaysia and he laughed said, “you must be from the States?” haha, I love how people can call out an American with a 10 foot pool. The atmosphere was to die for, very lax and very low key but at the same time an upbeat alliance that was built between you and everyone that you encountered. That is going to be one of my favorite bars here.
Today I plan on just chilling. Which apparently in South Africa is a new term and people think it’s sooo cool to say, let’s chill. I love studying different dialects and slang I find it so interesting. Most locals don’t respond to “What’s up?” Their equivalent is, “Howzit bru?” Which means, what’s up, dude.
Class starts Monday morning! I’m excited and nervous. Most international students have no idea to study journalism so my classmates are going to be local students, which I’m excited because you tend to find internationals hanging out with only internationals, but I’m not afraid of making friends at all. It’s why I came here.
Ciao for now,
*Mel
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